On Friday I finally decided to wear a dress, and it was the first time I had worn a dress to school since…well, preschool I guess, back when my mom got to dress me. (After that in elementary school I rocked leggings until I was 7!) Supposedly it was going to start raining again on Sunday so I figured Friday would be my last chance to really dress up for a little while, and wanted to end on a high note. (though I’m still going to keep dressing nice) I had looked at this dress in the beginning of April and told myself by the end of the month I would have the confidence to wear it to school, and I finally did wear it. I worked up to it by wearing fancier tops and skirts first. I know for some people wearing a dress to school is no big deal and is an easy decision, but considering that I used to dress as simply as I could so I wouldn’t get any attention for my clothes, it’s a good improvement for me. I didn’t want to wear shirts with words on them either because I didn’t want people trying to read my shirt, especially if it said something embarrassing like “Kiss Me I’m Irish” (I’m not even Irish!) or something about cute boys that my mom would pick up and try to get me to wear. I still think that’s embarrassing though, haha!
But back to the dress. I decided the night before to wear it since the weather was getting really hot. That morning though, it turned out to be really windy and a little cold even. Why the weather always tries to make my plans more difficult I don’t know, but I was still determined to wear that dress. My mom tried to talk me out of it though and thought I should change into something else, but this time I stood my ground on this and told her this was going to be one of my last chances to do this. Her doubts hurt my confidence a little bit, but I walked out the door to the car, no turning back.
I was a little cold, and I did feel a little self-conscious, but I put my sunglasses on and walked through the halls telling myself that I looked nice and to remember to focus on what other people were wearing. I did have to keep my hands down just to make sure the wind didn’t try to pull any fast ones on me though. It certainly would have been easier and less nerve-racking if there was less wind and the dress was a little longer.
While walking to first period one of my girl friends said I looked nice today and one of my guy friends resonated with a “You do look really pretty!” Another friend turned around and saw me and exclaimed “Oh my gosh you look so pretty!” So that was a nice reassurance to hear in the morning, and I told them they all looked nice too.
On my way to fourth period, I had to pass through a crowd of people in the quad. Maybe it was just my imagination, but it seemed like one of the good-looking popular guys I passed looked at me longer than someone normally would when you’re passing them, like with interest or something. And it seemed like one of the popular pretty girls was giving me a glaring look. It was kind of funny, and not something I’m used to.
When I saw my friend Annie at lunch, she did a double take when she saw me! She exclaimed that I looked really cute, and then said these past few weeks I’ve been dressing really cute. I thanked her for noticing and told her I was trying to dress more confidently. She asked where I was getting all these clothes and I told her that I’d had them for a while but never wore them to school or anything, the only time I’d worn some of this stuff was at swing dancing. She said she wanted to start getting some cuter clothes too since she feels like she’s been wearing the same thing for a while now.
Although I did feel self-conscious whenever I was walking, it was sort of fun standing out and looking pretty at school. I didn’t wear any make-up and most of the time I don’t bother to wear any anyways, but I still felt pretty in my dress. It was a bit of a pain because I had to be so careful with it, but it was worth it.
On the left: Not a dress, but one of the many notorious outfits my mom put me in. And on the right: What I wore yesterday, taken afterschool when it was finally nicer and less windy!