A Solitary Walk
This week has been my spring break from school, and unfortunately it’s been raining hard all week so I’ve mostly stayed indoors. I’ve been reading a lot though, and have a lot of books checked out on shyness as well as some other books that I’m simultaneously reading (I read too many books at once). I did meet up with some friends for volunteer work at school on Monday though, and did some work for my internship yesterday and helped the client see where his water usage was going.
Today was finally a sunny day though, at least on and off it was, as it’s been raining today too. After spending my morning reading a book on shyness and taking notes, I decided it was a good day for a walk. So I got dressed and asked my mom if she wanted to go with me, but she didn’t really. I was thinking of calling my neighbor to see if she wanted me to take the dogs today or not, since she was home today. I was sort of hesitant about calling, but then just pressed the button and did it without feeling any nervous symptoms thankfully. It turns out that she didn’t want me to take the dogs today since she was going to take them, but at least I asked. I gave myself a little pat on the back afterward, haha. 🙂
I wondered if I should just stay home then and not go walking, since my mom didn’t want to go and I didn’t need to take the dogs today. I decided to go out on my own, even though it’s been a little while since I’ve walked around on my own and I prefer to be with people or the dogs. I feel more self-conscious when I’m on my own when it comes to exercising.
As I walked and all these cars drove past me, I did notice that I felt kind of anxious though and couldn’t focus on my thoughts as well as I would have liked. I felt like each person passing by in their car was watching me and I was very self-conscious about my movements and expression.
I made eye contact with, smiled, and said hi to every person I passed though, and they each said hi back to me, or nodded or smiled. I walked until I reached the park, and then ran a lap around it and walked some of it. I went over to pet a cute dog that was going crazy with excitement trying to go over to me, and I talked to the owner (and the dog) for a little while, said it was nice to meet him, and then moved on. I ran up the hill on the way home, and by the time I reached my court I was really out of breath. I saw a neighbor who I’d never spoken to before at the stop sign, and he started talking to me and I talked to him for a little while. He said he had seen a girl running in the pouring rain yesterday and asked if that was me, and I said no and that I wasn’t THAT dedicated to running. The rain was madness yesterday, it was bad enough that I had to drive in it, but I wouldn’t go running in that weather. I felt good after my walk/run and shower, it’s amazing what exercise can do for you.