Here’s an update on how my week at school has been:
On Monday I didn’t raise my hand for anything despite a few opportunities that I feel like I should have taken. There are some times when I have a harder time getting out of my comfort zone and raising my hand, and this was one of those days. I did have some other accomplishments though.
I talked to my 4th period teacher about community college when he came by, and I usually don’t say much to him so he thinks I’m especially quiet. He was passing back my report card and asked if I was going to UC Berkeley or something, and I told him how I was thinking I’d probably go to community college. We discussed this for a while and I told him how I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do yet career-wise and it seemed like a smarter choice for me. He went to community college too and thinks it’s a really good way to go. He told me about some of his past students who went to community college and what not, and we talked for a good while.
In 6th period my teacher was talking to the guy next to me about college sports and he mentioned intramurals. After listening for a while and having nothing else to do really because I was already done with the assignment, I turned to face them both and asked about intramurals. From there on I was in on the conversations, though I only added something every once in a while and mostly listened. I didn’t want to invade their conversation which was why it took me a while to finally chime in, but of course it was fine and I was welcomed to add to the conversation.
On Tuesday I raised my hand first period by asking a question about a project. I was nervous and my heart was beating fast again, but I just told myself that this was just life flowing through me. I tried to take a deep breath, and then raised my hand. It cleared up my question, and I felt good that I asked and it was in front of the class.
On Wednesday(today) I raised my hand second period when my teacher asked for improvements to make on a website selling cars. I said the site needed to have a phone number on the contact page, and needed some sort of color scheme. There were a lot of opportunities to raise my hand 6th period today, but for some reason I was back in one of those moods again where I just felt like sticking to myself.
So at least I now know that it is possible for me to raise my hand if I put my mind to it, even if I can’t always do it every time I feel like I should. I still get the racing heart and nervous feeling, but it seems like it’s gotten better. At least I haven’t started shaking since the very first time! 🙂